I’m standing naked in the rainPlaying backgammon with Death againI see some flowers going mouldy on the shelfAnd then I cry so hard I look as though I’ve wet myselfSometimes I feel like I could kick my own head inBut I don’t think it would actually helpAll hope has goneMy life’s a conEverything is wrongMy life is like a stormy seaIt makes me vomit incessantlyA marbled hand emerges slowly from the lakeAnd slaps me sharply round the ribs until my kidneys acheI’d carry on if there was something worth living forBut even if there was, I’d still moanDeath bangs his gongThe bells go dongEverything is wrongSometimes I wish I was a senseless animalGrazing meekly in the shade of the valeBut if I was I’d be the seven-headed dogWho splits open when he chases his tailI knelt and I began to prayThat all this emptiness and doubt would go awayAnd then the cherubim and seraphim came down from up aboveSaying, “Do you know where we can get some drugs?”Then they all disappearedDeath bangs his drumParrum-pum-pumEverything is wrong
I’m standing naked in the rainPlaying backgammon with Death againI see some flowers going mouldy on the shelfAnd then I cry so hard I look as though I’ve wet myselfSometimes I feel like I could kick my own head inBut I don’t think it would actually helpAll hope has goneMy life’s a conEverything is wrongMy life is like a stormy seaIt makes me vomit incessantlyA marbled hand emerges slowly from the lakeAnd slaps me sharply round the ribs Until my kidneys acheI’d carry on if there was Something worth living forBut even if there was, I’d still moanDeath bangs his gongThe bells go dongEverything is wrongSometimes I wish I was a senseless animalGrazing meekly in the shade of the valeBut if I was I’d be the seven-headed dogWho splits open when he chases his tailI knelt and I began to prayThat all this emptiness and doubt Would go awayAnd then the cherubim and seraphim Came down from up aboveSaying, “Do you know Where we can get some drugs?”Then they all disappearedDeath bangs his drumParrum-pum-pumEverything is wrong